deactivate

"kejap2 deactivate...kalo cmtu..jgn ada fb langsung.." okey datz my status kt my wall skrang..since u x bley view profile i..i bg tau u kat blog ni..n yes i dh baca blog u..if u think u hate ur life..i hate mine too...more than u do..
yes karma is a bitch(mira 2009)..4 god sake plz end this cycle..all of us will get hurt so much if the truth reveals..life sucks..so what..we move on..


u really make me feel that having a relationship with any man on this earth kindly so bad..kan aku dh stereotype ngan laki..okay not really make..but more to trigger..coz i'm still rationale to not have irrational thoughts..cakap panjang pon x guna~so lemme list out why i'm doing this n why i'm doing that..


1. time u exclusive ngan i..most of the time u ignore me..references?juz read back ur blog..n yes..instead u want me to look so stupid which daa! completely i'm not..i give u back all the silent treatment to u..but somehow or sometime i x have the heart to mute for so long..thatz where all my messages to you came from..however..thank you for not being a pusher..i really mean it..

2. i can talk so many things even outrages topic.. not to mentioned sensitivity issue to you coz i have to admit u r a good listener..n u laugh a lot..that one of the best quality that u have..but somehow there is a wall where we cannot talk about our emotions rite?i am not a man but i know what they like..what they want and what kind of topic they want to talk..perhaps most of it..n geez i x want to be a man..or to portray iciness, coldness figure..i want to be bubbly, sometime child alike,warm where i can pour all my emotions..not facts.. and deep down my heart..i'm too fragile..fragile like an egg..

3. i can text you but i x promise i can text u as long as you want..the same thing u said to me...but i am what i am..and thank u..i prefer ur long texts compare to 'K' instead of 'okay'..yeah i'm fucking hate it..when i text with 70 words i get a reply wit a word..sometime man can be irritating..

4.i x believe a long distant relationship..sorry my policy..x ask me why..i'm x like others..shitty statement..

5. i'm x a heartless person where when u need me..u contact when u don't..u juz x even bother to say hi..evendoe i'll not reply or take ages to reply at least i can confirm what u said to me of being caring is definite...

too many things to say..but 4 the time being..letz stop here 4 awhile..status quo: i'm mentally exhausted so damm much~